This story is lifted from Living the Artist’s Life.Â It happened ten years ago now, a good time to review past disasters,Â and recoveries:
Â Â Â It was in March of 1997 that the manager of the Hotel Savoy, where my first gallery was housed, called me one Sunday night.Â HeÂ asked if I was watching TV.
Â Â Â I told him I wasnâ€™t.
Â Â Â He told me that was good.
Â Â Â I asked him why?
Â Â Â He said because my gallery was on fire.
Â Â Â I let the words sink in to be sure I understood them, but of course I didnâ€™t really understand them, so he said it again.Â He paused, and as he did I could hear men shouting in the background, the sound of gushing water.Â Then he said that I should probably come downtown.
Â Â Â I told him Iâ€™d be there in thirty minutes.Â I made it in twenty.
Â Â Â I parked down the street from the hotel, beyond the yellow-taped cordon, and walked up among the fire engines, firemen and cops.Â Smoke was billowing out the gallery door and water was pouring down the steps.Â When everyone realized that I was the owner, there was quiet commotion and words of condolence.Â Then a platinum blonde with thick makeup, a microphone in her hand, and a cameraman at her side walked up.Â She asked if I wanted to be interviewed.Â I looked at her tense, career-driven face and told her, no, I did not want to be interviewed.Â Then I went inside to look at the gallery, or what was left of it.
Â Â Â The fire had started in the storage room behind my space, caused by a carelessly left cigarette.Â It destroyed the storage room, the room above it, and half of my gallery.Â Most of the paintings and sculpture, thankfully, had all been moved out by the firemen and hotel staff.Â Though smoke-damaged, those works had mostly been saved.Â Everything elseâ€”furniture, files, my computerâ€”was ruined.Â I looked around at the mess as one of the fire captains came up.
Â Â Â He expressed his sympathies.Â I thanked him, and thanked him also for having moved out so many of the paintings; he acted like it was nothing.Â Primarily he was concerned about the damage to the gallery; he told me that he sure hoped I had good insurance.
Â Â Â My insurance policy had lapsed three weeks earlier, since Iâ€™d opted to pay the phone bill, an overdue advertising bill, and two months of back-rent instead of the policy.Â I had been planning to catch up on the policy in another week.
Â I told him, you bet, I had real good insurance.
Â Â Â When I got home my wife asked if everything was okay.Â She was sitting up in bed looking nervous and worried, certain weâ€™d been ruined.Â I told her about the damage, and the extent of it.
Â Â Â She asked if the insurance would cover everything.
Â Â I told her sure it would: that it would pay off the debt, allow me to open a new gallery, and that everything would be just fine.
Â Â Â She kept watching me, as if trying to make certain that what I said was real.Â My expression betrayed nothing.
Â Â Â Finally she smiled, and said she was glad that everything was all right.Â Just watching the relief on her face was worth the price of the lie.
Â Â Â Later she went to sleep and slept very soundly.Â I got to sleep at maybe four, getting up at six to go downtown and face the mess Iâ€™d gotten us into.
Â Â Â The damage came to $40,000, more than enough to square my debt and set me up in a new spaceâ€”had I only been insured.Â My gut wrenched in triple knots when I thought about it, but there was no point in thinking about it.Â What was done was done.Â
Â Â Â I set about cleaning what remained of the gallery, trying to figure a way out once more.Â While I was cleaning it, most of the other gallery owners in the city called to see if I was okay.Â I thanked them, and told them I was.Â Friends called, artists called, then one of my sisters called.Â A skilled businesswoman, this sister is always boiling with ideas.Â As we talked, she told me the fire had been necessary.
Â Â Â I asked her to explain.
Â Â Â She said it was simple, that my fate was trying to tell me it was time to move on and start over.Â She said I wasnâ€™t making it where I was, and that the fire would force me to move someplace else, and continue growingâ€”if I interpreted it that way.
Â Â Â I told her I could always grow, but that I needed to be able to feed my family in the process.
Â Â Â She said that was no problem, that all I had to do was have a fire sale: clean all the paintings, discount everything twenty percent, sell the inventory, and move on.Â She was certain it would be a snap.Â
Â Â Â It wasnâ€™t exactly a snap, but I did take her advice.Â With the help of some relatives and friends, I cleaned the paintings, and repainted and reopened the gallery.Â Then I called in the press, including the platinum blonde with the microphone.Â By the time they all came to interview me I was upbeat again, and gave each of them a story on how you can always rebound, you just have to decide that you want to.Â I told them that this is America, and that you can do anything hereâ€”which to me is true.
Â Â Â They loved it.Â I got coverage in all the papers and on all the TV stations.Â The sale was a relative success, and with the $12,000 I netted from it I was able to rent a space in a better location.Â The new space needed a lot of work, so I spent my days running the old gallery, and my nights renovating the new one.Â My days had never been longer, but I didnâ€™t care.Â I could sense that my life was turning a corner, and was anxious to continue the journey.Â Sure, I was facing $90,000 of debt now, but I could sense that bigger things were coming, if I could just hold on.Â Somehow, I managed to.Â
Â Â Â The odd thing is, the combination of these experiencesâ€”and several othersâ€”made me a better writer.Â Those difficulties reawakened a hunger in me, and a lust for life, that the business world had sent sleeping.Â They made me savagely determined to succeed as an art dealer, and writer.Â I didnâ€™t want those things for purposes of fame; Iâ€™d been too humbled by life to even care about fame anymore.Â I just wanted the success for my family, my artists, and especially because I felt I had something to contribute.Â I had made so many mistakes.Â I wanted to learn from those mistakes, and finish the job Iâ€™d started.Â Perhaps now I could.